writing

put mind mentalities on a plater
for all so see,

my ideas play an audible mind melody.
ill let you into my thoughts,

not afraid to display madness,
bitter wounds, heartless sorrows, meaningless tears..


Twisted emotions festering into one regurgitated rant on a blog..


frustration, deprivation, contemplation,
running down my cheek,
the motion running down my cheek, lips, thighs..

ride up inside deep enough to know I have daggers that bite.

sample my flesh to add to your collection,
self sexuality, self pity, self glory...

we ourself,
each others bate..

to date, to fuck, to hate.

Mother Mushroom Nature

..standing under a WiSe Tree, its so free, just living, breathing easily, how nice that must be. Only burden is which, its left to perceive yet with no mouth to speak. If one could only tell tales, piece of living matter which isn't rooted to fail. Beautiful oak stand over me, protect me from this world which leads the human race to our own demise.. when will you find the time to hear the cries and rise?

time

.......
time elapsing,
unmasking the future.
only made apparent through tangible.
abrupt thoughts; life in the hands of a clock..suddenly into a new dimension of reality, the real situation, realization & now contemplation...
every min. is j/ the mathematical progression of intangible place of time in space.. forever in motion.. yesterday is gone, future must be awaited.. so the time is now.
your life is in the hands of time; in your hands..
your hands are a representation of time..
you cannot see time, but you can see its essence through the wrinkles on your hand...
map out the wrinkles on times main instructor..
i dont believe in the wasting of time...since time is just an illusion after all..
this world in full of illusions..
dnt give in,
just live.

ψυχή δηλοῦν

ψυχή (psyche, "soul")+ δηλοῦν (deloun, "to manifest")..

the exuberance of the mind,
so tainted and numb to all..

both a blessing & a curse.

mind on the lose..
i cant find it..
i think i lost it..

the mind liberated from its ostensibly ordinary fetters..


its taken me over.

!!

A girl woke up......
from a 20 yr. long dream,
into a state of reality..
Awake from a deep ream-cycle,
from a place where she
without a doubt
insanely believed the real was tangible.

Her soul now evokes the energy of a woman..
mortal capsule grows old and weaker..
while the soul wiser & stronger..

she realizes that everything she once loved is false..
everything she once believed, was false..
everything she encountered, was an illusion..
everything she stood for, was pointless..
everything she had done, was for nothing..
everything she said, was a waste of breath..
everything she ever wanted, became meaningless..

Awaken in a bed of unfamiliar faces and unknown objects..
..the only direction she aimed towards was the direction of the sun..


The light will bring truth..........

Random Vids

Thoughts and Actions...

A new start..

detoxification..

Void all prior engagements, bad habits, evolved egos, slacking
& self made barriers..


simple living

extracting each daily problem one at a time..
suffocate the sense of feeling overwhelmed by a sense of control.

Knocking things down one by one..
but not as a whole.

Dissecting all bad energy from life
to begin a new blank canvas..



Although in life you may encounter the need to hold
on to things for a sense of comfort..

It is best to throw the comfortability right out the window,
to put yourself through a new series of challenges...
to build strength within the soul.

Regardless of how much it hurts to leave it, or how much you miss it.

Once you reach a sense of realization of the prior obstacle,
you can recap with reason rather than emotion,

And this will make you feel more alive than ever..

The only thing preventing this.. is the mind,
the mind is the reason we often talk ourselves out of something
or even into something..

the mind is your best friend and worst enemy.




If most ideas, concepts and beliefs originate from the mind...
break free from the pre-determined usual perspective,
detach the soul from the brain in which prevents you from coloring outside of the lines..

If the thought of an action is born in the mind than,
any action may be possible before the action is acted upon.




I now know why I am such an indecisive person..
it was not brought to my attention till a few weeks ago..
and I believe this same theory may apply.

When a decision is not made, than all the possible outcomes are possible.

Beware, do not wait too long..
like everything in life..
things must be in balance.

If you wait to long, it may pass you by..
If you act too quickly, you may not think of all aspects and regret the decision..

Because it is not until the decision is acted upon, that you cannot undo it..
but I new series are events lay forth before you.


Cogitation holds ones reflections of particulars which
ultimately makes everyones way of thinking, so different....



Perhaps that is why they say a thought if so fragile...

Not only is it distinct but can sculpt and design a plan..
The greatest plan of all, the journey of your overall existence..
which leads you into experiences..
thus these experiences mold your being by learning from them.


..nothing is linear.

For your info...

If you happen to stumble upon this page..
good.

Maybe u'll see something you like,
something you know,
someone you know,
somewhere you been,
somewhere you would like to be,
someone you'll to meet..

I post pictures of Everything and Everyone I run into along the way..
stay linked..
stay aware..
stay awake..

open your eyes to see the broader perspective..

stay tuned for more...

walking in LA...

A train ride to LA..



...
the things you will run into with a tall can and stogey in hand..
running around downtown..



the art walk from a birds eye view









....sleeping in the train station...





A chill snazzy canadian


buildings..












more pictures will be up later...

Extinction

Isn't it a somewhat disturbing idea of reality,
that one day every piece of matter will cease to exist.
If you think about it, it is one of the few universal things we all share,
with everything we come into contact with.

Interesting how our human specie perceives death as a negative;
fear and death often are characterized together.
why?
I do not know.
Well I suppose human nature allows us to fear the unknown..
but we should not fear what we cannot see.. (from the words of Porishead)


I am sure I would NoT want to be an immortal being.
Mortality in a sense is the main key to life's value.

Life is cherished and valued so greatly because of the fact that one day the
daily routine will get old.

Your brittle bones, murmuring heart, pulsating veins will one day give out..
just as the piece of shit car you replaced.

Last breath taken, chest drops, shorted sigh and bubbles out the mouth..
Bees will drop dead.
Your nutritious flesh will one day be in the stomachs on flies, maggots and worms..
giving life to other pieces of small living matter.

Our outter layer can be peeled, hurt, cut, smashed but
our soul, our self..cannot.

Like the soul, fond memories of greater days live on..
A favorite song that takes you back into a certain moment in time, which gives you that sweet escape even if it's for seconds.
That scent that triggers a image of the beauty you once held in your arms..
A scene of a movie which will always make you laugh..
or the distance sound of a laugh in the other room.. will be missed once your gone.

Without death there is no life...
since death is what gives value to life..
without death.. would life be worth living?

If we were all immortal... I would probably be about 256 years old.


The fact that one day.. your heart will no longer pump blood through out you body into your brain..
is why life is too short and too precious..

Coachella

Im Jessica, here is me above at Coachella Music Fest...! "I have no legs.. I have no legs.." (quote from the movies kids...random)


Coachellllllllllla... & skinny nacho libre....

Many even rode their bikes to the event.. (I wouldn't recommend it).. but if you are one of those people with an emotional attachment to your bike then I guess it does come in handy when sitting in the car on Friday in the long line. But hey at least that gives you time to drink and few drinks in the car before heading inside and spending like $8 on a cup of beer.






so.. i ended up raising enough money to get in after all..
thanks to some of you folks...!
But I am a lagger and didn't get a ticket to the sold out sold festival, I had been waiting for since last Coachella.
I was pissed and crushed gave up on getting a ticket, but didnt give up on getting in Coachella.
Anyone who has had the advantage to get to this festival understands the energy and vibrations no other can offer..
well some do.. but they its pretty rare. It not just about the music, but the art, the love for art and music, the energy, high free spirits and cool people from all over the place.

To make the long story short, although the show was sold out, I got in... Freeee.. muhahhaha

Luckily with my camera which enabled me to bring these images and visuals I was able to see, to you...


They were spinning, jumping in a circle while saying..

freee hugssss..

These cool people were from Australia.. thnx to a tall guys shoulders, i was able to get this shot..(which ended up being on of my faves)

This was the entrance to one of the many stages there...


This one in particular had misters.. and people spraying water off the stages to keep cool. I tried to get in there, but as soon as I saw water I quickly turned my back and cradled my camera.. with all the water being sprayed the dirt soon turned into mud. As the festival progressed, drinks flowed, people danced and I bet many people woke up hot and hung over hating life at 7am as the sun is beating down on the tent, waking people up whom were probably still drunk and sweaty, stuck in a sleeping bag. Thanks to the pal Sierra I stayed in a condo in Palm Springs.. it was chill & comfortable, better than sleeping in my car like last year. Last year I went without a plan, not to mention I was sick with a fever in 100+ weather on sudafed, herb, rum, beer, and tylenol.. not a good combo. I don't know how I did it.. I was a trooper.
Also on two opposite sides of this stage were two awesome artist working on elaborate painted murals..everytime I went by that stage, I would notice something newly added. Props to the artists..!<33




this picture takes me back....no wonder coachella is often refered to as a modern day woodstock to the old folks..
no only to you have the chill vibrations in the air, body paint, crazy outfits, people in bear costumes, mass creativity, a bit of nudity, herb, peace and unity and of course fun in the mud..



light shows anyone?.... In the middle of the DJs set you are bound to find someone willing to give as well as receive a light show for all the E-tards out there.. p.s cut that chemical stuff out sickos.


Roller Derby Madness... I wanted to go out there and throw on a pair of skates.. but about 1/3 way into a handle of Captain M. Rum didn't sound like a good idea. Something tells me I would not have been of graceful or cute as I thought, If I did. I would have looked just as cute as my drunk ass jumping the fence at some party in a miniskirt last night.. but I won't get into that story today. haha.. big deal..we get drunk and do dumb shit.. dnt act like u haven't, at least I'm not afraid to rant about it.. laughing about it now.
So instead, me along with many others played frogger, dodging the drunks on roller skates to get to the center of the dance floor in the Desert Roller rink.


Friendly girls from out-of-state.. took a break from body painting (painting my arm) to have a toke on the green..
It was fun going around mingling and taking pictures...I met a lot of cool people because of it..


Night View of Coachella... In the distance... Masses of people, Ferris wheel, party organ and the beautiful purple Origami Crane, which provided shade for many...




If you would like to check out more of my pictures from this event.. check out the album on my Facebook account.
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2060331&id=1172692555&saved

thanx <3

a scorpio is bornnnnnnnn....

Born of the eighth astrological sign in the Zodiac..
A Mid-day in November.. the last orange leaf falls.
near the Ocean along the green harbor..
another lost leaf, another lost soul..

Guided by the wind the orange crisp leaf lifts off into the abyss,
a spec of perception travels to lye softly on the reflection of the sky.

And there she ponders, underneath the sky; so vast..
as life, as the ocean, as the stars which connect to a dipper..
scoop her up, into a dream..
only in her thoughts is she completely free.

Into the door which enters the mind,
back into a state of remembrance and still images..
of an family.
A tree branch split early on into two different yet distinct parts.
They both the root of which the flower blossoms..

Perhaps a weed..?
a piece of living matter.
wandering about, amongst the masses..
Imagination kept close,
hopes kept high,
praying to the gods that my energy will never let my spirt die.

Help a KID out...Coachella Fund

So I want to go to Coachella..Its 17 Days away from today..!


I have a few bucks saved up...but need enough to survive with food..etc..
With that being said, I need to fill up this jar with more cash before April, 13th.. at least. :[ So I just got a new laptop with photoshop, Illustrator and other new programs. If anyone needs Head Shots, Portfolio pictures (Make-up/ Art/ etc..), Product shots, Band pictures, Marketing, Baby- Easter Pictures... or any random pictures you want to do (I am open to new things and ideas). Please let me know.. I will be willing to make a extra flexible schedule on top of school to make this possible. I will provide you a CD with all the proofs and we can talk and arrange the price depending on what prints you wish to buy.
To make this slightly more interesting, whoever helps me out with this, out of the mass of pictures collaborated for this funding experiment, I will choose the print I like the most to make into a big painting or a print on canvas of, to give away for free!
If anyone is interested or in need of my services:
Please contact me..
Jessica Nares
JMNares1@aol.com

Random FUN Finds and Talking shit

Barbie, Ken & friends of the Madman TV series made my mattel; retail price of $74.95 each.

Also gotta give cred. to he AZN sista Silvia Ji from San Fran., for her artistic abilities and intrigue in sugar-skull-faced women with alluring beauty.



Ok.. one more.. Natalia Fabia's work reminds me of candid shots mixed with a raw yet seductive imagination tossed together with light pigmented pastel colors with a feminine touch. These vivid scenes which intersect with her life and thoughts end up being the product of imaginative pieces on a canvas, that will not allow your eyes to stop rotating around the canvas. Each painting feels like like an intimate piece, like her friends are what keep her passion alive. There is that relationship between the artist and the subject that is evident yet I can't quite explain, but I like it.


Am I the only one who sees something wrong with this, brain washing girls at a young age to care about materialism and narcissism. Dressing them up older with make up, making them skip most of their child hood to bask in self glory and fight for the spotlight amongst the other poor little girls who will probably grow up to be small town sluts on meth.

Brain in a Pot of Philosophy...

A human being is so tightly enclose and bound by flesh that we often forget there is more to us than mass.. the pure essence of one that can not be seen or physically touched but that is perceived through the body in which you inhabit. I think of a soul as a driver of the mass you lug around. The light which enables the body to function and send electric impulses to your brain and out pumping blood through your veins to keep that pulse and the heart's melody to life. The energy and duty we take on as humans, as individuals, as electrical mechanical beings derive from our past experiences and future outlook. It is the soul that wakes up to fulfill a duty of the day but the body the enables you to do so in the land of realities. We perceive the world around us, just as any other average healthy human being with 5 senses. Since it takes the perceiver to sense these objects, matter must be mentally obtained. In a sense matter in images is an idea; a defacto. The greatest illusion of today, is the idea of matter. Greatest Illusion of materialism is because matter needs materialism. The soul does not rely on materialism; your mind determines reality. Since early on in history we have feared the unknown, the beyond.. and the end. We see death as the end and final moment of our existence. Perhaps in the next stage of life your body is unnecessary, and your soul rises up and out of its old shell to continue on.. drifting energy. "Know Thyself"
Whatever your philosophy of life or death may be, make sure truth is evident in your life and skepticism in your thoughts..

Random rant..

(These pictures were taken on my trip to the Island of Oahu..including the one above w/ blog title) Why is being outdoors so great, like a long lost original animal instinct humans lost touch with. That now to be in an outdoors/ natural forest environment is now a luxury, yet we need to go to certain remote areas to find it & can rarely make time for it. The mere fact of the notion of being an outdoorsman is kinda funny. The word hiking never existed long down the ancestral line, it was called hunting for food and hiking was something you did without thinking along the way. It is weird to think that this world was once so green, or that it was natural human nature to live outdoors amongst the other animals that we now divided ourselves from. Not only have we detached ourself with other species we have detached ourselfs from nature in general. Our specie alone has evolved into narcissistic animals whom can only rely on commercialism and consumerism to live. The entire aura of our specie has been tampered with thus tampering with natural selection due to technological advances. But at one time we had a different purpose in life, which lead to different perspectives and beliefs...not all the nonsense that life is composed of today. Now people tend to only care about materials and quantity of these materials, which tend to over ride the quality of life itself.

This bothers me, how many walk around with a blindfold on.. everyone starts looking the same after awhile. Fresh robotic beings, a product of the U.S environment.. ideologies of false hope, false gods, false beauty & false teachings...
It actually scares me to think of how many conditioned brains are really out there..

...I feel like "another lost soul swimming in a fish bowl"....
..with my head in the clouds, alway thinking, always pondering, always questioning...